Selasa, 04 Januari 2011

I am so weak, but you have to know why am I so weak.

Hallo. I am, Mutiara Aqsha Fitri. A girl who wants her idols know that she really love them, especially Irfan Bachdim, Bambang Pamungkas, Mesut Oezil and Jack Hanafi. She just want them to appreciating her. Aqsha is so weak, she easy to cry just because a little problem.

I'll tell you some things that make her cry whereas it just a little problem. This is it................

1. Mesut Oezil
She ever mentioned Mesut Oezil in twitter and he replied it by DM, she was really happy. Oezil has replied her mentioned 3 times and she was really really happy. But one day, when she has mentioned Mesut Oezil 'til maybe 50 times but he didn't reply it. She thinks that Oezil is so arrogant now. But then she think, who is she? is she Oezil's sister? no. is she Oezil's nephew? no. so she just wasting her time just for waiting Oezil to reply her mention.

One day, she changed her handphone's wallpaper being a photo of Oezil. She stared at the photo and she wanna cry because now, she didn't know how to make a conversation with Oezil and she didn't know from where she'll know more about Oezil. But she knows that she's not a part of Oezil's life :')

2. Irfan Bachdim
She knows Irfan Bachdim 'cause he's our timnas' naturalization. He's so handsome, cute, awesome and cool boy. When Indonesia was be the winner of AFF's semi final, she knows more about Bachdim. She love him more and more. And when Indonesia was lose in the final, she wanna cry but she can't. But when she watched some news 'bout "Indonesia's defeat" SHE WAS CRIED!!!!! And she was cried so loud when she looked Bachdim was crying. Bachdim seems like can't stand with this situation but this's our destiny, we can't change our destiny. God has better plans for us.

Then, one day, she give many mentioned for Bachdim, but....... he didn't reply it. She wanna cry like what she wanna do to Oezil. But back, she thinks it just wasting her times. She has tried to stand, but she can't. Her tears fell down. Her mind don't want to cry, but her heart want. She always think that she's weak. If she has idols, she always put them in her heart not mind. So, when her idols doing something that for her is so make her dissapointed, one thing that she can do just " CRY "

3. Bambang Pamungkas
She's the biggest fans of Bepe. Like always, she has mentioned Bepe, but she don't get what she wants. She has mentioned Bepe almost 150 tweets but her destiny is same like Bachdim. She almost cry but like always she thinks that it just wasting her time. She really dissapointed with bepe 'cause he don't same like what she thinks. She thinks Bepe is so friendly but now she think he's not as same as what she's thinking 'bout. But..... it's not reduce her love for him.

She don't have many things that make her cry 'cause Bepe, she just dissapointed hahaha.

4. Jack Hanafie
She's Hanafie's biggest fans. When the first time she looked him on Television, she was melting. His eyes were so appreciate the song. She's like flying on the sky and don't want to fall down -_-. For 3 weeks she didn't watch his show 'cause......... idk, forget.haha. And when 2 days ago, Jack was on big 5 that jurrors think they (the big 5) was not really good. I wanna cry 'cause I don't know how to see him again. But finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The jurrors said that Jack still can be one of participants in IMB2. She was really happy in that day :D

Now, can you understand why she's so weak? She always cry when her Idols make she dissapointed or make she feel like something is prop her heart and she feel uncomfortable.

And all of that stories, she wanna says something. That's.......

" She always use her heart for everything that she did, watched,read and everything that she wanna do. When her mind don't want to do, her heart seems like force her to do that "

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